3am Ramblings

Still going through with BIT Sessions and it really it telling me that I can no longer treat my body the way I do.  I am choosing to start eating better.  I choose to start eating more raw and live foods and eating proper combinations and stop eating at crazy hours.  I choose to  get proper rest and  exercise so that I can continue to do what I choose to do.

I will call within a week and set up an appointment with the Country doctor to get my ear looked at.

I have Feng Shui’d my room about 95% and it looks and feels great.

Still moving forward with Co-creating this Intentional Community.  “A Communal Living and Gathering Space centered around Art, Music, Healing & Magick, fueled by Positive Intentions for the betterment of Community’s physical, emotional, mental and spiritual growth.”

Oh yeah I just spent like 4 hours redoing my myspace page….uuugggghhhh, but it is better than what it was.
Got a short weekend with Seth this past weekend, he wanted to go home early and Tracie happened to be in the City on Sunday so she picked him up.
Gotta figure out a school or apprenticeship for music/audio production soon….I really need help with this technical shit.

Slowly getting more pics up on Flickr…just had a blast from the past tonight with my 2001 trip to SF…

Niandra has been in heat since the kittens have left….she is driving me crazy with cawwwwiiinnngg and maaawwwwwinggg all day and night….. Sep 8th she gets fixed…

Earwigs, Feng Shui & Clearing

So in my last blog I mentioned several things that I wanted to really go into more detail.

These past several weeks have been full of action. I am farely clear on what I need to do (on a day to day and yes somewhat in the future) and I actually do it. Instead of procrastinating then creating a mind fuck for me to suffer over day after day. I feel I can contribute this new found state of action to receiving these BIT sessions (see my last post for that).

So I have been playing poppa to Niandra’s kitties Morpheus, Neo (and Trinity for her 4 weeks of life). The kitties were so amazingly beautiful and uplifting yet very frustrating as well. Mainly because Morpheus would not use a litter box, no matter what I did to try to accommodate him. In his last weeks he basically lived in a very well sized home I built for him, supplied with litter, food and water. Yet he still chose to pee and sometimes poo on HIS floor, but at least it was not my carpet and bed, and all I had to do was replace the newspaper. Last weekend I ended up taking both kittens to a no kill shelter and I suspect they will be adopted very quickly. Now that Niandra is not nursing her milk sacks can dry out and in about a month she will be spayed and therefore will be able to be a free spirit again (indoor/outdoor). That is how she likes it and how she lived here first 2 years of life, and these last 3 months indoors has been challenging for her and my as well.

I also finally sold my beast of a truck. I sold it waaaaaay toooo low, but in the condition it was in and the situation I was in I am grateful for getting any money for it at all. Goodbye Pen Dragon, it was fun while it lasted and I hope your spirit carries on with other good souls.

I mentioned in my last blog about getting gemstones removed from my ear. Well in Jan 2007, while I was sleeping, it seems a 6mm Amethyst crept into my ear. Now I nor anyone has actually not seen this, but psychic intuition tells me it is so, and then June last year another 8mm bloodstone possibly fell into my ear. For a while I was complacent about the whole thing. However lately I am aggravated for not taking action sooner. I can no longer hear out of my left ear and it doesn’t quite hurt but it doesn’t feel good either. So last week my friend who is an acupuncturist and actually removed a gemstone from my friends ear (yah we are a bunch of crystal freeks, so what) with forceps, attempted the same move on me. However my stones have been in my ear way longer and I have a terrifying fear of things going in my ear. My biggest nightmare is dreaming of huge earwigs crawling into my ear and hatching babies, then eating my brains of some shit. eeewwwwww aaaauuuuuggghhhh So anyway in attempts to pry my ear canal open and snatch this round object which she did see and managed to remove a huge amount of nasty black earwax, but could not get the stone due to my squirming, screaming and crying and then blood finally being produced. So the sight of blood motivated me to call people and I will be seeing the country doctor to get a referral to Harborview who will help me have it removed, which I will demand being put under. I do not want to be awake when the process happens. I trust this process will be smooth. More news to come on this.

Now lastly, for years I have been interested in Feng Shui, but until lately I have not done any research into this ancient science. For about a week I have been mapping my room using the Ba Gua and we have already applied Feng Shui in most of the rest of the house. I am about half way through my progress in my room and so far I am enjoying the shifts. Some of it is so subtle and some I have rearranged whole areas of my room. In the 1.5 years in this space this will be the 3rd time re-designing my room and I am feeling this will be the it. Just in time to move. That is usually how it works. But it’s good, because I like this system of organization and programming your space. I will definitely be using Feng Shui in all my future spaces.

Taking a Chomp at the B.I.T.

So my dear friend and roommate is always coming across something new and wonderous to incorporate into his life and then he shares with his loved ones.  For some time he has been studying and practicing King Solomons Mind Region.  From what I understand it is an original Jungian Therapy that was buried by himself and other powers that be, because at the time he realized mainstream medical science and society would not accept it.  Therefore he chopped it up and presented what alot of us know today as Jungian Psychology.  This more ancient form of psychology deals with ancestral baggage, soul retrieval, life purpose stuff.  It involves meditation, play, respectful touch, tapping energetic points, mudras and other non-invasive techniques.

I finally decided to undergo this process and I am now 6 sessions into the 10 part series.  To be honest I really don’t exactly know what it is doing, but I do know I am constantly changing and evolving almost every day into something bigger than I was before.  I do know there are a lot of family stuff surfacing and life purpose stuff is definitely brewing on the surface.

At the same time Daenin began Mind Region he was also introduced to B.I.T. Brain Integration Technique.  This involves neuroscience and eastern medicine technique by using non-invasive energetic techniques.  BIT has been proven to end ADD, ADHD, Dyslexia and other learning disabilities.  It can permanently improve memory, concentration, spelling, reading, planning, multi-tasking, balance and coordination.  BIT optimizes brain function in children and adults that uses NO drugs or medications and is permanent, self-maintaining and requires no exercises or medications.

Daenin underwent his first session with BIT about 2 months ago and I am impressed for I have seen major results in his logic and functionality.  Some improvement in memory as well.  And this was just with a small first time session.  Since his first session, Kat who administered it, was out of town until last week.  And while gone Daenin formed a group of people interested in this modality.  I am one of them and last Thursday I underwent my first session.

I must say in the little work she did, since, I have been much clearer, I can actually define who I am and what I want to provide to my larger community.  I am making somewhat better use of my time.  I am no longer procrastinating and I have actually gotten more things done this week, than I have in previous months.  So I am excited to continue this process. I have another session on Thursday.  Yay for Conscious Evolution.
In the past week I have helped organize and coordinate the beginnings of an new intentional community here in Seattle.  I have loosely written out parts of a mission statement for that IC.   I have mostly come up with my larger purpose in this community.

I have finally taken action and sold my truck, which has caused me so much headache for many months (now I just need to pay the balance off I owe on it).

I have decided what I will do with my kittens so that Niandra can get her life back (she misses being outside, even though she enjoyed being Mom for a while, she and I want our life back).

I am finally getting seen to have this gemstone removed from my ear that has been there for 1.5 years, which has caused mild irritation and extreme lose in hearing.  I have and continue to clean my  body out of various toxins.  I have a loose stradegy on becoming more financially abundant, and this is all in the last 6 days.

Exciting times these are, now back to breathing in each and every mOMent, which I have lost track of for sometime.

Seth’s 5th Birthday Party

So Saturday Pixi and I went to Enumclaw, where Seth and Tracie live with her partner Lee and his 10 yo son Trevor, to celebrate Seth’s birthday.  All of the kids that might have been there canceled due to whatever reason, but it was nice, cause I think Seth gets along better with adult anyway.  Lee’s family was in full force and it was quite nice. He has some young blood in his kin.  His grandpa, dad, mom and daughters boyfriend was there.  Plus Tracie Mom and her husband.  Small and humorous crowd.  Seth received so many stimulating gifts that will surely keep his attention for many months and quite possibly years to come.

There was a little delay for me and Pix getting out on the road and the feast was held up a bit for that, which I didn’t expect them to wait, but it was nice to commune with everyone.  I feel honored that Seth can enjoy a birthday party with His Mom and Dad and new family all together, sharing food, drink, conversation and play.

Anyways good day all around.  Once again I love you Seth and may your new year ahead greet you with much joy and happiness.

More Birthday Pics here

A WHOLE HAND

Seth Kiley-Chase Johnson

Born in Bellevue, WA

July 22, 2003 @ 10:02am

Cancer Sun

Capricorn Moon

Virgo Rising

See His Full Chart

Today is my Sons Birthday. He is a WHOLE HAND he says, 5 years old. YAY for growth. I missed his 2nd and 4th birthdays I feel really good to be with him on his birthday this year. Although I cam not currently with him, I will be at his party on Saturday in Enumclaw. I am finally getting my Flickr account up, very fustrating it has been for me. So my first Set is a Seth Birthday Montage. I have posted Pics I have from his 1st Birthday to his 4th. I will get his 5th up after this weekend.

I LOVE YOU SETH, always and forever ofcourse

A Call to Many plus 1

Shining our Light While we move forward in the dark
A Call to Many, plus one
While the earth rumbles and tumbles within and without
Now is the time we take shape in our full power
Naked Spirit dancing in and out of shadow
Hold your torch strong and steady
Light the way for our kindred from without and within
Bringing together All fare Races
From Cosmic Realms to Deep within
Greet One and All with a surrendered Heart
Reading My Shape
I say it’s pure Love
Unconditional Love
What’s your shape?

Same Coin

Nov 9, 2007 7:38pm

Every Time the Crow Caws
or the Raven Soars
That’s me feelin’ you
like water on the Shores
Bringin’ up Feelings
of BEing Close
to Divinity….revealin’
what’s inside of me
is you, Yet NO thing
Realer than what
we all all pocess
Excuse me while I
try to process
these emotions of reality
fixed on transformation
while I loose my sanity
HAAH
thought you had me
in the mOMent
yet thats the beauty
of BEing me
I can be FREE while
tied up inside
Wrapped around a tree
While Flying High in the Sky
Busy as a Bee
Don’t wanna go outside
Paradoxical Melody
Feel my Conscious High
While I Sigh

Dear God-Us

A friend of mine sent this to me, thought it was good…. originally written by astrologer Rob Brezny

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Prayer for You
I’m happy to announce that this is a perfect moment. It’s a perfect moment for many
reasons, but especially because I have been inspired to say a gigantic prayer for
you. I’ve been roused to unleash a divinely greedy, apocalyptically healing prayer
for each and every one of you — even those of you who don’t believe in the power of
prayer.
And so I am starting to pray right now to the God of Gods … the God beyond all
Gods … the Girlfriend of God … the Teacher of God … the Goddess who invented
God.
Dear Goddess, You who never kill but only change:
I pray that my exuberant, suave and accidental words will move you to shower
ferocious blessings down on everyone who reads this benediction.
I pray that you will give them what they don’t even know they want — not just the
boons they think they need but everything they’ve always been afraid to even imagine
or ask for.
Dear Goddess, You wealthy anarchist burning heaven to the ground:
Many of the divine chameleons out there don’t even know that their souls will live
forever. So please use your blinding magic to help them see that they are all wildly
creative geniuses too big for their own personalities.
Guide them to realize that they are all completely different from what they think
they are and more exciting than they can possibly imagine.
Make it illegal, immoral, irrelevant, unpatriotic and totally tasteless for them to
be in love with anyone or anything that’s no good for them.
O Goddess, You who give us so much love and pain mixed together that our morality is
always on the verge of collapsing:
I beg you to cast a boisterous love spell that will nullify all the dumb ideas, bad
decisions and nasty conditioning that have ever cursed the wise and sexy virtuosos
out there.
Remove, banish, annihilate and laugh into oblivion any jinx that has clung to them,
no matter how long they’ve suffered from it, and even if they’ve become accustomed
or addicted to its ugly companionship.
And please conjure an aura of protection around them so that they will receive an
early warning if they are ever about to act in such a way as to bring another hex or
plague or voodoo into their lives in the future.
Dear Goddess, sweet Goddess, You sly universal virus with no fucking opinion:
I pray that you will help all the personal growth addicts out there become
disciplined enough to go crazy in the name of creation, not destruction.
I pray that you will teach them the difference between oppressive self-control and
liberating self-control, awaken in them the power to do the half-right thing when it
is impossible to do the totally right thing.
Arouse the Wild Woman within them — even if they’re men.
And please give them bigger, better, more original sins and wilder, wetter, more
interesting problems.
Dear Goddess, You pregnant slut who scorns all mediocre longing:
I pray that you will inspire all the compassionate rascals communing with this
prayer to love their enemies just in case their friends turn out to be jerks.
Provoke them to throw away or give away all the things they own that encourage them
to believe that they are better than anyone else.
Show them how much fun it is to brag about what they cannot do and do not have.
Most of all, Goddess, brainwash them with your freedom so that they never love their
own pain more than anyone else’s pain.
Dear Goddess, You psychedelic mushroom cloud at the center of all our brains:
The curiously divine human beings reading this prayer deserve everything they are
yearning for and much, much more.
So please bless them with lucid dreams while they are wide awake and
solar-energy-operated sex toys that work even in the dark and vacuum cleaners for
their magic carpets and a knack for avoiding other people’s hells and their very own
900 number so that everyone has to pay to talk to them and a secret admirer who is
not a psychotic stalker.
Dear Goddess, You fiercely tender, hauntingly reassuring, orgiastically sacred
feeling that is even now running through all of our soft, warm animal bodies:
I pray that you provide everyone out there with a license to bend and even break all
rules, laws and traditions that keep them apart from the things they love.
Show them how to purge the wishy-washy wishes that distract them from their daring,
dramatic, divine desires.
And teach them that they can have anything they want if they’ll only ask for it in
an unselfish way.
And now dear God of Gods, God beyond all Gods, Girlfriend of God, Teacher of God,
Goddess who invented God, I bring this prayer to a close, trusting that in these
mysterious moments you have begun to change everyone out there in the exact way
they’ve needed to change in order to express their soul’s code.
Amen. Awomen. And glory halle-fucking-lujah

RE-Sent-Mint

Jan 29, 2006 9:11pm

oh dear one you tried so hard
you HAVE been very persistant
always forthcoming sure
but still with some underlining “truth”
I have sat and watched
occasionally feeding the virus
ME, blinded by my own desire
a wanting so strong that I would die
until NOW
I NOW realize you live in your pain body
every action and word stems from that
you seem righteous in your own “right”
but underneath it all you are lost
lost in the sea of anger, rage, hurt, worry
lost in confusion, guilt, blame, jealousy
caught up in the world of emotional chaos
attached to them, the very ones
that create this pain for you deep within
the question for me, what to do?
NO-thing, I will use my tools of surrender & patience
just like a warrior, waiting for his enemy
sword at his side
however you are not my enemy
you are my lover, my friend
I do not desire death for you or me
I wait patiently without feeding the virus
sending only love and light
no-thing more no-thing less
waiting for this virus to totally consume you
or wanting so bad to leave you
either way I must wait patiently
no want, no desire here anymore
surrender to what has been
what is and what shall be
you shall take this as bitterness
but I say take it as sweet gratitude
gratitude I hold for what will come
sweetness like chocolate on my pallet

Surrender to You-Me

Jan 11, 2006 9:51pm

call your heart to mine
gaze into your eyes
place your points in line
this is where tension dies

in synch is our breath
flowing together as one
our love surpasses death
we shine like the sun

don’t let fear take hold
bring in your awareness
from your mind and unfold
remember your purpose
don’t hang up on the goal

once again in synch
the physical does not exist
for the moment of a blink
we can enjoy pure bliss

what a precious feeling
this close to GOD
essentially healing
in our little pod

A pod of love created
two souls make one
from the love that is sacred
shining brighter than the sun

tears of joy in my eyes
we quiver in our embrace
ecstatic bliss synthesized
with kundalini interlaced

visions of tommorrow
come to me from afar
no pain or sorrow
nothing that will scar

surrender to GOD love

surrender to GODDESS love

surrender to our love

surrender to your love

Hopi Elder Prophesy

Peace

Hopi Elders Prophesy

To my fellow swimmers:
here is a river flowing now very fast
It is so great and swift,
that there are those who will be afraid,
who will try to hold on to the shore,
they are being torn apart and will suffer greatly.
Know that the river has its destination.
The elders say we must let go of the shore,
push off into the middle of the river,
and keep our heads above water.
And I say see who is there with you and celebrate.
At this time in history we are to take nothing personally,
least of all ourselves, for the moment we do,
our spiritual growth and journey come to a halt.
The time of the lone wolf is over.
Gather yourselves.
Banish the word struggle
from your attitude and vocabulary.
All that we do now must be done in a sacred manner
and in celebration.
For we are the ones we have been waiting for.

Free Speech

2 Nov, 2005

I find myself unable to speak at times when in social circles (mainstream and alternative) Although I have been working hard at re-coding my DNA in order for me to just BE. 27 years in this lifetime of programming by mainstream society, plus the many generations in my lineage have held me back too long.

I am a flower that has survived the winter and the sun is now shining on me. The temperature is warming up and my petals are opening. My roots are soaking up the moisture and delicious ingredients in the soil. I am beginning to produce nectar and I can see the lovely bee’s and other beautiful creatures beginning their journey my way to harvest this sweet nectar. This will provide food and shelter for their family. I am estatic to be part of this cycle and provide for others.

I thank the BEE-ings in my life who are like the soil, water, nutrients, wind, sun, bee’s and all the beautiful creatures of this cycle. Without them I would be dried fiber, dust….

I love the connections and the new life that springs from them!!!!

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This still rings true for me, 3 years later. But I have had growth in that area some. Although I don’t seem to find myself circulating in many circles these days. I think that is due to working alot and stuck in old familiar patterns that I am working on shifting.

What is it with communication anyway? I mean the fact that we as humans can get thru the days without mutilating someone actually seems like a big deal. There are so many variables with this modality. YOu have words, the tone, the body language, the psychic impressions, emotional attachment to all of the above, mental comprehension, presence in listening, and the list could go on.

You know I have been listening to Pandora for a bit now. It’s basically part of the Music Genome Project. I think that we should communicate thru music/sound and take the technology that Pandora uses and apply it somehow to our emotional and mental state and what we feel will translate thru tracks. There could be all sorts of clothing accessories that house very small, lightweight but effective speakers. You wear a very lightweight, comfortable, breathable yet non-synthetic undershirt with sensors and a small transmitter. You plug an MP3 player into the shirt and boom-bap you got language baby….

I saw a guy today on The Hill at a bike messenger rally, with a front and back speaker/amp attached to a pack he wore. He was totally retro with a huge gold watch hanging off his bike and blasting old skool hip hop…

Hucha Katchina KeKe De

25 Oct, 2005

This is the name of my comedic warrior guide. Aboriginal & playful, yet watchful and protective.

I had a really good session with Nikki Magdalena up in Queen Anne today. I definitely recommend her for her energy/physic work. She was like having an ancient warm breeze blowing throgh my physical and etheric body.

Got my costume ready for Kings Chamber. It’s not what I was intending to have when I began sewing it together but it’s still cool, I think. I originally wanted to go as Imhotep. He was not a real god but was reverred as one after his death. HIgh Priest of Ptah and Chief Architect of the step pyramid at Saqqara. Born out of humble beginnings he quickly rose the ranks of the Kings Court. Thats sort of how I see myself in the future. However the costume took a turn and I ended up sewing a headress (which according to my research Imhotep wore no Headress). So now what I feel I am going as Hadra, who is a Nomadic Galactic Egyptian.

Half “alien” (not of planet earth) half earthing of egyptian race. It all began when my father an egyptian farmer around 3500 BC came across a yound lady in the marshy fields of the nile delta. She was unconsicous and appeared very strange looking.

Knowing that the lords of the land would definitely take her away and use her for any number of things he hid her in his barley sack. Took her to his humble quarters and nursed her for weeks until she came to and finally was able to perform chores and task around the house.

For weeks nothing was really spoken about anything, there was an underlying knowledge of what this situation was about yet no verbal words were being spoken. The farmer a man of conservative ideals had never experienced anything as telepathy before, he infact had no vocabulary for the action. Yet he seemed calm and reserved about this whole experience.

Eventually the women told the farmer who she was and where she was from and why she had landed in his barley field. She was definitely not of this planet she was sent from a world many millenia away with a mission. She along with many others of both sexes were shuttled to earth to intergrate with the beings here and help assist in the evolutionary progress that the planet so desperately needed. This included awakening of humans consciousness in preparation for the future generations that would be a part of a universal shift.

So in short in order for this integration to take place the pioneers had to find candidates for the job to accept them into their home and breed physically and spiritually. I am the product of the physical breeding of these two.

Imhotep

Dream Ship

1 Oct, 2005

Lucid Dreams running rapid in the psyche.

Illumination

Good vs. Evil

Light vs. Dark

Child vs. Beast

South vs. North

West vs. East

G-D vs. Man

Ripping, Clawing, Shredding, Peeling

Pulled from 4 corners of the Earth

Realization

Wondering Mind

Battered Spirit

Yearning Soul

Download Central

Physically Morphed

Transformation

Comes from Illumination

To Realization

Of the Gestation

Of Momma Geia’s Nation

Guide and Protect us

Most High

My Virtual PolyTantrik Sykik Orgy

gReeTings with bLiss-Liss jOY

EVery m-OM-ent is our second chance to BE still, LIsten & LOVE….

sur-Render to the LOVE that inhabits any and all….This LOVE is GOD-Dess sPEAKing to & from US…

nEver-Mind the pAst, dOn’t wOrRie aBoUt the fU-Ture, those time’s do not exist in reAlity, they are oNly an Illusion that our mInd hOLDs onto….sUr-Render to the NOW….rIght now to this very present mOMent…………

hOw dOes It feel, taste, smell, sound, lOOk????

tAke this chANce rIght NOW to LOVE, LOVE, LOVE….

In-Joy, liVe, LOVE, lEARn, gRow, tEAch, eXpRess, BE

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So this use to be a greeting on my phone, it really irritated people, especially those who have already heard it, cause it took like 90 secs, unless you knew how to bypass the message. This has been on my blog as a greeting since inception in March 2005. I feel I wrote this after listening to an Audio MP3 of “Power of Now” by Eckardt Tolle. Being present is a full time job, but rewarding to feel the universal spirit/chi/life force “whatever human word you wanna apply to that awesome power that exist within and all around us each and every mOMent”….

Space Pod

Well, to be honest I am making it up in this mOMent. I think this blog is going to be filled with visual tastes and audio delites…..with possible ramblings from a beautifully insane mutant goat….

**Update**  July 13, 2008

So I am in the process of transferring My Tribe Blog over to this site.  32 Dimensions have been speaking to me lately and I wanna make it come alive.  I am actually gonna do my very own blog site that I have more control of, for personal reasons.

So since I love to watch transitions, I am going to transfer some of my most pertinent blogs over from the last 3 years and probably give some post analyst on it.  Plus I now have a Flickr Account and most of my pics will be there.

I hope you enjoy perusing thru my site and feel free to drop a line.

Peace and Blessings

CJ