RE-Sent-Mint

Jan 29, 2006 9:11pm

oh dear one you tried so hard
you HAVE been very persistant
always forthcoming sure
but still with some underlining “truth”
I have sat and watched
occasionally feeding the virus
ME, blinded by my own desire
a wanting so strong that I would die
until NOW
I NOW realize you live in your pain body
every action and word stems from that
you seem righteous in your own “right”
but underneath it all you are lost
lost in the sea of anger, rage, hurt, worry
lost in confusion, guilt, blame, jealousy
caught up in the world of emotional chaos
attached to them, the very ones
that create this pain for you deep within
the question for me, what to do?
NO-thing, I will use my tools of surrender & patience
just like a warrior, waiting for his enemy
sword at his side
however you are not my enemy
you are my lover, my friend
I do not desire death for you or me
I wait patiently without feeding the virus
sending only love and light
no-thing more no-thing less
waiting for this virus to totally consume you
or wanting so bad to leave you
either way I must wait patiently
no want, no desire here anymore
surrender to what has been
what is and what shall be
you shall take this as bitterness
but I say take it as sweet gratitude
gratitude I hold for what will come
sweetness like chocolate on my pallet